“The person who lives in right relationship with God does it by embracing what God arranges for him. Doing things for God is the opposite of entering into what God does for you.” Galatians 3:11,12 (The Message)
Last Thursday God arranged a hard day for me. Nothing worked.
Conversations were marked by misunderstandings, and I grew more and more defensive and withdrew.
It was meeting after meeting. Lots of good ideas for sure, but how do they get captured and prioritized? I was owning too much and feeling like getting it done all rested on my shoulders (or at least it seemed that way; one curse of having “responsibility” as a top Strength Finder talent). Resentment showed up.
Later in the day an idea I had worked on for weeks was tweaked right before the execution step. There was no time, it seemed, to go back to the drawing board. The “tweaker” was a person, a co-worker who should have been in the decision-making process from the beginning. He was right.
I apologized the next day for running him over and excluding him.
Instead of embracing what God had arranged and leaning into Thursday by faith, I had gritted my teeth, rolled up my sleeves and kept pushing harder. Hard work is wonderful, but working against God’s flow and plan for the moment, or the day, is fruitless. By Thursday evening I was a ball of stress.
The next day, Friday, I quit. Resignation served.
But then a few things happened. The Christy Nockels song “For Your Splendor” began to soften my heart as I drove to the office. I sat in chapel with co-workers, moving toward a surrendered heart.
As the Word of God washed over me, the Spirit continued His work. Confession, repentance. I asked God to give me a heart that would embrace what He had for me that day. Help me stop pushing, stop forcing, stop pressing. Rather, mold my stubborn heart to willingly enter into the things You have for me today.
Friday flowed. It was good. Joy was present. Thank you, Father, for Your work of pruning, molding, convicting and showering me with grace.
Today is Wednesday. Will it feel like my Thursday or Friday for you?
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Prayer 2 – Pray that nothing will prevent you from allowing God’s Word to fill your life — developing intimacy with Him and sensitivity to His voice.